I'd just wished to throw everything away and lie on the beach staring blankly to the surrounding . I'd always been fantasized by the soft and fine sand accompanied by the sound of waves crashing against the rock, maybe at night , the blinking stars with the dark sky. 

Today when i woke up, I'm still hoping that mum is at home so I'd my food . I'm alone in the house the whole afternoon and wanted my mum at home so desperately. To kill boredom, I switched on the television and left my homework spread all over the table but did nothing . How awesome ! Also, read my storybook. The girl was so pathetic, it was really heart-wrenching and I could decipher her thoughts. While reading, I seriously hoped that the stepfather can just fuck himself and die since he love to sex so much.

Okay, back to topic. When parents were back, I didn't know what's wrong . Maybe pms ? Attitude and such . *roll eye* Whatever it is, i can't be bothered much. Now i was hoping time would rewind back till the time where i'm all alone at home . At the least i had peace. Now i was hoping to go out , but didn't know where i should go . Had tried asking my pretty babe but i guess she isn't in the right mood . Nevermind, i think i should just try sleeping early.  Sleeping is like dying, HAHAHA Maybe ! When you aren't conscious of the things around you, die for that moment.

Cross fingers that i'm able to sleep, I hate sleepless night. Seriously, that desperation of falling asleep, make me feel like crying and whining to wear myself out. Maybe one night i shall go to JCP for a walk . It's a peaceful and serene park, it'll be great if there isn't any bangalas cause they are always in groups and making a din .