Saturday, April 06, 2013 Saturday, April 6, 2013
There is so much things weighing me down, my mentality is constantly being torture and I feel rather suffocating. Questions were being raised up constantly and apparently, I can't find any answers to them. Talking to one of my old friend, I realised that in her eyes, she thinks that I look very happy with my friends. That makes me wonder: Am I really happy? I have been asking myself question as simple as this, but all I ever feel is just.... I don't know how to describe it, it's just not good. Well, it's only the surface that other can see, what's really beneath it, only I could feel it.
I watched a drama and the guy simply said: "life's like taking a bus, there will be people boarding and alighting the bus. The people around you now are just temporary cus' one day, they will alight too."
As much as I wanted to spend time with the people who are currently on board, but how many are actually willing to spend time with me? They are probably busy talking to those that they want to, cus' maybe they were engrossed in their common topic, or maybe busy fiddling with their phone, texting, listening to music. It's never gonna work one-sided. Only if you get what I mean uh.