Monday, August 19, 2013 Monday, August 19, 2013
Hi, just making myself feel better here. Yes, I've accepted the fact that things had changed, just that sometimes, my mind wander off to the past. Somewhere I don't belong to, I know.. I kind of miss it. I kept telling myself, I can't change the fact and there is nothing I can do. Similarly, because of this I feel rather sad too, it's like you can just watch everything disappear in just maybe one day. Yet, it takes forever for feelings to totally go? Actually I don't know what I am feeling.. It feels like I'm totally over it, but when I came across something, I feel a tinge of heartache. It's like I can still be affected by him. Fuck this okay. I really hate it. I just want to fuck care everything and laugh it off. I am really glad I've crazy friends and I genuinely feel happy talking to them cause it makes me forget everything for awhile. I hope one day, anything related to him will not have any effect on me. And it better be like..now?
"Never underestimate the pain of a person, because in all honesty, everyone hurts. Some just hide it better than others."